somehow

Its hard to say what's on my mind today.

Regret from the past,

Hope for the future. 

I feel ashamed of things I have done,

but amazed at what has become. 

I am someone different today, 

than who I was before. 

Belief based on Love,

and life based on grace.

I feel as though so much around me is a mess, 

so much seems helpless.

But, somehow it all seems so glorious. 

How can He love me in this midst of this?

So many questions,

never any answers.

Yet somehow, 

there is life,

somehow there is hope,

I don't know how,

but there is love. 

Could that be an answer?